Hard to believe I will journal a lot here, so many places to write my shit. I did just change my profile pic, trying to inspire myself to post more here. I do check in on everyone else though ;)

Living seems to be all about change and change and again again NEW

so many experiences lived it is difficult to go back in time so I start right here, new walls and ceiling and new kitchen









just floors necessary throughout the house to be complete. Lots of work, but so worth it in the end.

I am hopeful for our new president, Obama, but still have concern for the dollar and all of our financial well being, watched so many freaky youtubes that have scared the shit out of me, but I must put it to faith that me and my family will be led where we need to be in such the time, maybe it is right here on the front, who knows, I am trying to daily let it go and focus on my family and art.

"Community" and my landscapes are keep me sane these days. I am also drawing figure and landscapes with sharpie and then going over with watercolor, loving that expression.

Working on models for sculptures and ideas for an installation. Having fun communicating vital truths to myself.

Peeling back the layers in yoga and transcending past thoughts processes and emotional blockages. I feel that my only salvation through what is happening in the world is to go deeper within and find the parts of myself that are not carnal, but rather the magical symbiosis that can occur in the ethereal.

Calling in a new "live in" because that is vital for this household to run smoothly and happily. It is all working its way to us and I am claiming the midas touch to the entire household so financial freedom can be reality.

Happy November

We are living in crucial times and I am blessed to be a part of NOW

Okay, lame is my ass for not posting an entry since last September. I just got shocked back into reality and all dormant has woke up.


Hi

THANK YOU A BEAUTIFUL EVENING AND MORNING

even if I was hopeless at lyrics
funny because my love for music is immense
but it was the recall
wonder why for me...
I checked out

Loved the laughs

I was so charged last night, so it was 12am and I was like cool, I will wait up and view. Well I had no idea it would be 3am, so David and I slept out on the grass in awe of the moon. I don't think I have ever really watched the entire eclipse. The colors were outstanding and to go from full light to total dim, I can only imagine how the first observers must have felt. They probably thought the world was over and that life as they new it finished and then the reaction when a glimpse of the bright light started to reveal itself again. Truimph.

I am tired but then charged by the phenomenon of the universe.

I know we just treated David great all week. He won a bonus so we took him out shopping for some new duds and he indulged me too (thank you babe utterly cool). We went out to

http://chocolatine.net/

for a romantic dinner held only once a month there. That is how Clementine is living with us today (Its own blog).
Today he did have to go into work, but came home early to eat dinner in the garden. I made homemade tomatoe soup, from toatoes in the garden and grilled ocean safe (OSC) halibut and zuchinni from the garden as well. Living off the land. Beautiful evening.



just beautiful



tomatoes midway through, before the blend

The most delicious ever.

Last blog I was talking about my garden and now I will provide visuals. I have to say I am so blessed to have a space like this. I do give it an hour per day minimum and I work in her pretty much everyday I am home. There is still so much more to grow :)




this photo is from where the firepit area is, which will not be pictured. from here you are under a gaint red pepper tree



take a walk from there to a huge just to flower yellow tea rose
first time I had poppy's come up



along the path, look and you will find, the crazy rose, I swear, just 100 off one climber



my flowering orchid at this time




and hopefully these various types will share their beauty with us



I forgot to mention the iris, they are so beautiful and
appreciate the vantage down the 3 planter boxes



turn around behind you and there is my vegtable and herb garden
MAGIC



turn around and check out the area from this view



look at the yummy fruit: 2 nectarine, 1 apricot, 2 figs, 1 blood orange,
avacado (although has to be 10+ to bear fruit), blackberry grove and
3 fruiting mullberry trees.



look through the tree and you will find, Blackberry hill cafe, where
I just planted a Japanese Maple and some scottish moss


and of course the most beautiful flower in the garden on her
first birthday



my retreat when I have the time to relax, which I force myself, even for a few minutes
my life has never been so full and alive
I am truely blessed

If I were to get up to date, I would be writing an awuful long time. So much is happening, but for starters my garden is a paradise and I am excited for yet another addition, ginger. At present there are probably 200 roses flowers in blossom. I have 10 different varieties of Roses and they are all going off. Some smell lemony, some smell super sweet, some are so fragrant, I wish I could keep my nose in it all day long. The beauty of Roses is that the longer they mature, the more full and condensed the flowers become.

I have hundreds of apricots buds on one tree, the nectarine is also so plump with fruits I wonder how the branches will stay strong when they start ripening. I have created a hill with blackberries which I call Blackberry hill. I have 4 different types of jasmine, some have already bloomed and others just starting. I was just given 10 orchids, 4 different varieties. The geraniums are going off, the colors are melting my mind. The grape vines are just starting to climb there way up the arbor to create shade for the summer.

My garden has heirloom tomatoes making there flowers for fruit, an arthicoke, chard that looks like a bush it is so happy, asparagus, for the first time, we will see what happens, basil, cilantro, dill, sage, rosemary, parsely and mint. I have zuchinni, butternut squash, cucumbers, watermelon and just about to build a pumpkin patch for halloween. Lots of fresh eating.

We are just about to put up the pool for lots of summer fun. Celemtine, from France will be here before I know it.


Coachella was absolutely incredible and all I can say is that the consciousness of people is naturally elevating. When you are at a festival where you can feel the mass energy collective, it is undeniable.

Starting new art project, 72 canvases. I better stop blogging and get stretching.

Still shaking. Dave and I bought the house. I was just declared official. We own this home. I love it, in fact this morning we took the acoustic ceiling off in our bedroom. Wow, Wow, Wow. We owe 1/2 a million dollars. Fun Lots of work ahead, but finally we get to reap both the headaches and the rewards.

My life is taking a turn in a productive direction. I have been working for a woman whom had a stroke 3 weeks ago. This has been an intense experience for me on about 5 different levels. I have seen a friendship get so deep so fast, I really miss her when we don't speak on the phone. I am appaulled at our health care system, how ashamed alot of people should be. Utterly disgusting. I am not going there because it will spoil the few breif moments I come to journal.

I am excited at where my art is going. It looks very favorable that a gallery @ Bergamont will be taking my work. I am up for doing a LA red line Metro station wall. I proposed a 64 piece called "Community". The best part is, I keep the originals and work with a fabricator to make the piece on tiles. 200 square feet baby. So keep fingers crossed on that.

Relationship with David is grand and the mortgage on the house is about to go through. What a committment, but it is right.

Just to keep me going, I don't sleep much anymore.

I haven't been here in forever. That is writing a post. I do come and check out my friends. Think with the add on of the new two, I am working all the time and I have to give something up and fill that space with new projects. I have not forgotten where I came from though. It was right here I started my true internet experience. I do miss this. I find myself hitching on MySpace more often and to be honest this is somehow more real.

Life is great and l welcome the new season. I love the wind.

I have been hit which much inspiration and am about to explode with new opportunities.

Poof!

I haven't written a post in more than 2 months. Where have I been? Well with 4 children under the age of 5, I guess we could say I am busy. That isn't it though. I suppose keeping a website, getting into MySpace and all the other happenings, that explains it.
Also the fact my Mom has been living with me now for 3 months and that definetly changed my rhythm. I am glad for her presence though. I don't know what I would have done without her. I have a live in baby sitter. It is my manifestation power of needing a nanny, she is not the person, but it shows me how much freedom that will give when it comes.

First things first, we need to purchase a home and I feel that coming very soon. It is scary that the lowest price is $600,000. Ouch. But when things are needed they seem to happen.

I must admit, I am not as busy as I thought I would be. I have peaceful moments. Time when my feet are up for atleast 4 minutes, that is not so bad. My husband takes care of all night and early morning tasks, so I am not too tired.

Life is good, not with out challenges and hard work, but that is what life is all about. This is my time to do the babies.

Soul, Jai, Ace and now ElleDeja

I love them all equally. They are all amazing in totally different ways. Blessed :)

My "MonoChromactic" series is complete. Now I look for photographer and hopefully a show in November or December. I am ready to get out there.

quite literally

$$$$ woooooaaaaaahhhhhhhssssssss!!!!!!!!! This sucks. But am thankful for the love of family and friends.


Been painting and watching it unfold has been so magical. I have completed the "Blue" "Red" and only one more color to the "Purple" I don't know which color I will choose to start tomorrow. Stretching the canvas' are hard work, but well worth the finished product.

Only a few more weeks of being pregnant and I cannot tell you how excited to NEVER be pregnant again. I am trying to see the big picture because that is the only thing to keep me sane. In fact, all the babes are great, but when sickness comes and it is multiplied, it is fucking hard.

Been kind of lonely for social activities. These days just don't bring enough of it for me, thank god for the telephone. I have been communicating with some of my very special friends this way. It keeps me laughing and remembering a part of myself I haven't been able to visit for a while.

I look forward to the rain this weekend. I like the change and all my new seeds are going to prosper from it.

I see lots of pots of tea with honey goodness and smells from the kitchen to keep us happy :)

lots and nothing

i love it

learning about:

family
friends
art
parenting
home
finances
gardening


this is an intensly rich time

deep and dense with love

These are beautiful days.

Last week was a fun filled week with being with great friends @ Devo. Fantastic show.

Taking the boys to Monster Truck Jam, which I might say was funner than expected.

Saw the female living inside of me on the ultrasound screen.

Re did the boys room in blue etherial star theme and new cool beds, making room for Ace to move in with his older brothers.

Strecthed first large canvas and today 6 new frames arrived to start strecthing for "MonoChromactic".

Sat outside under the cloud filled sky and dreamed for a while. Saw new possibilities for growth and change.

Wondered why Noel Coward's "Private Lives" hasn't been a film made since the 30's, so wrong. Is he holding out the rights?

All times are prolific and I can recognize this now

Leap off

the Edge

Lived it through into this year. I feel like I put the yellow ring on and now I am living, not knowing that someone is on there way with the green one. Suspense. While I am here going to be apart of the devolution and demolition all in one weekend. It is a shedding of past of course and into the new raw Lea. Looking forward.

Lots of changes for Soul and Jai, moving into booster chairs and new beds!!!!!! They are growing faster and faster, I await their fullness. Come on Ace, you be walking soon and last and final baby on its way.

This year was a success for myself and Dave. What we have achieved as partners, parents and artists. Personally many mature moments and fully in my womanhood. Thank you for all the friendships and support the year has brought. I delight in 2006 because I know many great things are on their way to me. I love watching my family grow and change. Amazing!!!

Blessing for all.

My trip was sad and beautiful all the same. Went to the cemetary with my Mom to my father's grave. I left crying more because 25 years later my Mom is still so sad and hasn't fully let go :( Spent quality days with my Grandma, bless her sweet older self. Was pampered by a long time friend who cut and colored my hair, thanks Michelle.

My trauma occurred the day of travel when I was informed that the woman who was watching the boys while Dave was at work had cut my childrens hair all off without my permission. Fucking freak. I have gone to the police station and filed a report and I best not ever cross her path because I could become violent. Yes, the hair will grow back, but Soul's hair had never been cut since he was a baby (except for his bangs) he had ringlet curls down his back 8 inches long. I am the most pissed because she had no liberty to cut my children's hair without my permission and since I am back realize it was her plan because she didn't like that my children had long hair. The nerve. Words cannot express the feelings of violation I am feeling.

A hard lesson, you really don't know people until many years pass. I have known this lady for a year and never thought or saw her possesiveness over my children, her disregard for my authority as a parent and oh I can keep going and going. She better stay away from all of us or I will call the police on her ass.

I am realizing I truley have one major friend who is really there for me no matter what and is invested in most all my emotions and situations. Thank the great universe for that relationship, I would be at a great loss without her.

I need to get back into the season and start getting all my cards written and out in the mail. We decorated our Norfolk Pine yesterday. She is a sweet little tree I purchased 2 years ago for $1 and is now starting to grow into a big beauty.

Festive!!! Festive!!! Festive!!!

on my way with Ace to Chicago for a few days

wont be accessable to computer, I am sure I will manage

;)

Lately I have not been in the habit of journaling here. I go into LJ everyday, check in with my peeps, sometimes comment and then leave. I need to get back into the swing. There is no excuse other than I feel like I don't have much to say or what I do have to say is somehow not too exciting except of me, so why bother. In fact daily I have much to say, but I guess I am on the phone communicating or painting my feelings into colors and shapes.

I can see that Christmas is nearly here. It kind of freaks me out being a mom and not really in the spirit to decorate the outside of the house or even get a proper tree. I am not baahummbugg. I guess the price of school for Soul and Jai leaves us with nothing extra and I mean nothing. Most of you out there don't even pay rent what it cost for their preschool and month after month I feel we can't afford it. I have looked into other schools they can attend and come up with nothing in this area. So for now we are in this space of affording only school. I can see how they are benefitting and that keeps me going.

My heart is pure and happy!!! Keep it posted.

So the candy experiment
a complete success.

Have been so busy. Took the boys to see Chicken Little. Cute and fun. I could tell Soul and Jai loved it.

Julie came out Saturday night and Sunday minded the boys while I worked with Bruce to send my grandma 15 orchids for her birthday. Sunday night dinner with Julie and the boys was delightful. The way family meals were meant to be.

On Sunday, that same day, Dave collected Ainjel for an overnighter, which became 3 days, to my enjoyment!!!!!!!!

Julie left and fun began with Ainjel.

I am so lucky to have two greatest girlfriends I could be around forever and ever!!!!

Ainjel fell right into her place here and even today the boys are asking where does ae live and when will she be back ;)

I dropped Ainjel off at home and then met up with Franceska who took me to see Jamiroquai at the Wiltern. I saw Lori for a second. This has been the week of my girls.
I danced for 2 hours straight. I love Jay Kay, but I don't know if I could buy it if he weren't wearing his head gear. Seriously, he has evolved since the last time I saw him 7 years ago. In Chicago he would tour there 2-3 times a year in early 90's. I may have seen him perform more than 6 times. It was a fun show with me front stage center. I love it, whenever I see music I am usually right there in front. Thank you universe for my blessed life in regard to music. I have three deep relationships with music makers, there must be no mistake there. (see smiles)

Today back in the home life with a full day with all 3 while Dave works a 13 hour shift. I had a touching moment in the guest bedroom with Soul and Jai laughing with me on the bed, to the point they could breathe from laughing so hard. Those are the moments.

Lots of friendship and fun.